my imitations
these poems were all written to practice other styles.
An apparent break
spring 2023. this poem is imitating Lyn Hejinian's My Life.
An apparent break. Books must start somewhere, some here. Center selfhood on the "actual" self, not what may or may not pleasing. Desire is DC, please, with a view of the Thames. Embrace a thematic life, narratives of completions and deaths. For we who love to take our medications, it's all continuity. Gratitude toward that one is more than my self can give. Her care may be conditional on true performance of that gratitude and continuity. I can only give anger and what to me seems to be righteousness. Joining with the piano bench and the bookshelf, singing (belting) in unity. Kill it, screams the page before. Living with approval of the impossible can be made possible, says some who take their medications. Meaning-making resists the impossible, grounds what ought to be possible. No meaning is left. One hopes for the desires that remain strong. Place is distinction. Quixotic understandings of my world hope to ground my self within something bigger somewhere. Refusal of meaning seems to grasp impossible desires. Suppression is the unintended result of refusal. There is no there there. Understand - place provides distinction. Very doubtful. Whether or not it is "true", no matter.